Ramble Ramble

Sometimes I get so discouraged by what others think, and I contemplate why aren't I good enough for these people? The comfort I find in the Lord that I don't HAVE to be anything anyone wants me to be, I just need to be glorifying to God. With this fact, that he loves me just the same either way, I think that's what makes me want to glorify him. I struggle so much with how I can please others, and when I don't it's heartbreaking but there's no possible way to please every person in my life, in conclusion I should focus on pleasing him who loves me in all circumstances :) so many things on my mind tonight, not looking forward to being at school, but thankful for the opportunity to be away from problems here. Saw him today and he just laughed at me. I'm thinking what's wrong with me? How could I have loved him so much and he thinks of me as a joke? He's changed so much, but I'm keeping him in my prayers. I miss who he was, not the person he's become, maybe one day things will be different. I don't know what to do or what's going to happen, trusting Him now with my life(as it should be)!